he never met a girl that made him laugh nearly as much as I do lets me know that he loves me. And I’m the one that gets to love him. I’m so incredibly lucky.

my boyfriend and I met. One entire year. This time last year I was on my way to his house. Meeting him for the first time. That night was perfect, so perfect. It will always be a cherished memory of mine. That night started it all.

so there’s a lot to catch up on. I’ll start with Valentine’s Day. I went up to visit my boyfriend at his school. I knew it would be a wonderful weekend because the drive up was perfect. It’s so beautiful. The moment I got up to his room, he signaled me to check his desk and on it was this stunning bouquet of roses. He completely surprised me. He told me he was only getting me one rose and he blew me away with the most beautiful roses I’ve ever seen in my life. I even made a shadowbox with them, that’s how much they mean to me. That’s how much he means to me. We went out to dinner at an Italian restaurant and had amazing pizza. And we had a very incredible time that night.

His spring break started March 1st. I was over excited about it. When he was on his way home he said there was a chance that we wouldn’t see each other that night and I was crushed. But we did. We went up to his friend’s house in the city and had a blast. Just drinking and smoking and a great time with everybody. But what we did together that night on his friend’s futon was the best part. Very sensual and downright hott. And the next day was even better. We tried new things that we both thoroughly enjoy now. We had a great time on his break. I saw him everyday of it. We spent 5 hours at Toys R Us looking at toys we used to have and took a trip down memory lane. It was so much fun, I felt like a kid again. We went shopping for shoes. We tried the new Dorito taco the day it came out in the middle of a snow storm/traffic jam.There were parties. We just had a wonderful time. Then he had to go back. Only to come back three days later for our concert. We went to see Finch. It was their 10 Year Anniversary of What It Is To Burn. And it was fucking amazing! We had so much fun that night! We went to a diner after and it was just a memorable night. We went to the movies too and made homemade Denny’s pancakes. I love cooking with him. It’s the only time I’ll cook. My brother and I also threw a little party at my house that he was fortunate enough to stay for. We had a reallllllyyyyy good time. Just fun getting drunk and stoned in the comfort of my own home. Saying goodbye sucked but it was also my spring break.

So I saw him three days after he left. I went up to his school for his Birthday. I went up a night early and I’m glad I did. It was an enjoyable time. We went shopping, he sat through me shopping I should say. We went out to dinner twice. And watched movies. His Birthday was fun, I’m so happy I got to spend it with him. He RNGed his first Pokemon and seeing that look in his face was priceless and I’m happy I got to share that moment with him. I gave him his Birthday presents. He loved it. The next morning he gave me my Birthday present since mine was a few days later. He got me Cinderella and a Walh-ruhs for my dashboard. It was the sweetest thing. =] Then he was playing guitar and started playing this song and it was about us and how we met and our relationship and he made it up as he went and it was the sweetest thing he has ever done for me. I cried because it made me so incredibly happy. I seriously have the best boyfriend. I’m so incredibly lucky. Then I took him out to dinner and got him a cookie cake. We had a really great time. Especially that night.

Then I had to leave, not knowing when I’d see him again. That’s the hardest part about the long distance, it’s not knowing. But my Birthday came around and I TURNED 21!!!! It was so awesome! Mom took me to the bar exactly at midnight. That’s when my boyfriend called me too, I was so happy that he did. Meant the world to me. But Mom and I had an absolute blast! I lost my necklace that I was wearing there that I didn’t even realize till the next night. The day of my Birthday was great. I got my license flipped, went to VS with the giftcard Mom got me and it was fun! Mom made spaghetti and my cake had purple icing. It was the best! Mom got me a beautiful bracelet too. I absolutely love it. JD got me The Hobbit even when I didn’t ask for it! He’s such an awesome brother. And Breezey got me a Cat in the Hat. Sweet kid. The night of my Birthday my brother took me out to the same bar that I went to at midnight. They had my necklace and returned it to me. It was the necklace I got for my Birthday last year and wore on my boyfriend and I’s first date. So it means the world to me to have it back. I was so so so happy. It was a great Birthday, definitely one I’ll remember. =]

I lost a friend in an accident on April 6th. They held a memorial for him the night after and it was a beautiful ceremony. Seeing everyone gather for one single person because they knew and shared memories with him was amazing. I wish I knew him as well as everyone. But the memories we did share are ones I’ll remember forever. My boyfriend came home for it. Decided last minute. I was so happy to have seen him but not for the right reasons. Just like with this weekend too. I’m thrilled to see him, I just wish it was under better circumstances. This will be rough to get through. It’s like what my grandma said, “It’s ripping a bandaid off of a fresh wound.” Seeing everybody upset and especially my boyfriend is just heartbreaking. I know what that family is going through and I wish they didn’t have to. I wish none of this would’ve happened. I wish there was something to do to change it. I just want everybody to stop hurting. It’s just not fair. This weekend won’t be easy, but we gotta get through it.

My boyfriend stayed with me for a couple of days. That night he gave me the rest of my Birthday present. It was Paulrus de Wahl-ruhs. A walrus beanie baby and the way he presented it to me brings the biggest smile on my face. He made it peak out of the bag and jump out to me. He’s the absolute best. We still had a good time together all things considering. And a sensual time, very sensual. He got sick and I took care of him. Stayed up with him on Monday night and skipped class on Tuesday so I could take him to the doctors. I’m glad I was there for him. I want him to be as healthy as he can be. 

School sucks. But it’s school. Doing really well in my 205, which is sweet.

I’m excited to see my love tomorrow. I just want to be with him for all of this. 

I know I talk about him a lot but he just makes me the happiest person alive. He really does. He makes me feel happy, he makes me feel wanted, he makes me feel loved, he makes me feel beautiful, he makes me feel sexy, he makes me feel confident. Walking by his side is one of my favorite things to do. He makes me feel amazing. And I love him for that. I’m in love with him and I’m so lucky to have him in my life. 

So I think I caught up.

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going to visit the love of my life. I’m beyond excited. He’s my first Valentine and being able to spend the day with him, it’s all I want. I love him so much.